Turning Troubles into Glory

*12/22/2005 6:29 AM*


* ———————————————–
S:* “Now My soul is troubled, and what shall I say? ‘Father, save Me
from this hour’? But for this purpose I came to this hour. Father,
glorify your name. Then a voice came from heaven, saying, ‘I have both
glorified it and will glorify it again.’…And I, if I am lifted up from
the earth, will draw all peoples to Myself.” John 12:27-32

O:* Jesus is troubled about the coming death, crucifixion. He’s troubled
because He knows what it will cost Him, how much it will hurt, and how
unready his followers are for what is about to happen. But he also knows
the timing is right according to Daniel 9. God always does things on His
time frame, not on ours.

*A:* Troubled. Like a bridge over troubled waters. That’s what my life
has been the last 90 days. It’s been one roller coaster ride after
another. And I would trade any of it for the world. I have learned so
much. I have gained so much knowledge and so much energy from this. The
last 90 days I’ve grown. But the troubling has remained.

Yesterday Manuel and I met with an Adventist developer from Colorado
Springs. He said he was 98% sure that he was going to buy the land
outright for $550k plus any incurred expenses and let us keep whatever
26 acres we wanted. But in the end, it appears as if it has fallen
through. I was excited yesterday, I was finally able to take some of my
vacation yesterday (we’re now 4 days into it, and so far I’ve been
putting in 10 hour days on this property issue). Then as I was working
on a Christmas present last night, I got his call and it was falling
through. I don’t have high hopes anymore that it will come together yet

Troubled. That’s the words Jesus spoke. That’s the picture of my soul.
I’ve had a lot of troubling experiences with this thing.

But I think God’s words speak to me today. Jesus said he was troubled
and God spoke back to him. They speak to me today too.

“I have both glorified it and will glorify it again.” John 12:28

That says to me that no matter what happens with this property issue, I
know that God is still in charge and that He will use it for His glory.
I don’t want it to glorify me. I don’t want it to glorify my church. I
don’t want it to glorify the RMC. I don’t want it to glorify anyone. I
want to see God glorified. That’s my whole desire. That’s my goal.

And I like what Jesus said a little farther down the page.

“if I am lifted up from the earth, will draw all men to Myself.” John 12:32

This relieves my struggles. I know that I must lift up Jesus. Everything
else will fall into place when that is done. Everything else will happen
as it’s supposed to happen. I know that if Jesus is first, if He is
foremost, if He is in charge that God’s glory will be done with this
property and with this issue.

I am not troubled. I will stay to the task of lifting up Jesus. I will
stay to the task at hand. God will work the property out in His own time
and in His own way. I know that’s the way He wants it.

*P:* Lord, thank you for that reading today. I’m not the only one
troubled – you were troubled too. And God the Father spoke to you to
acknowledge that He was till in charge. His words to you, speak to me
today. You are in charge. You are able. You are the one that makes
things happen. Thank you, Lord. Thank you for the way you’ve worked this
out. Thank you for allowing me to grow in my knowledge and dependence
upon you, Lord.

I pray for tonight’s meeting. I pray you will open my life and open my
doors. I pray you will lead the group of people who will come there
tonight and give them the courage to step up to the plate – or
completely shut the door, Lord. I pray you will shut it so everyone sees
it shutting. Lord, please prepare my heart to do what you ask me to day.
I will follow. I submit my life to you. I will walk with you and follow
you wherever you lead.

Lord, one final request about property. Please lead us to listen to you.
Where do you want our home? Do you think it’s a bad thing near the power
lines? Lord, you know I would never want to put anyone at risk. I pray
that I won’t do that, for a view of the mountains. Please lead us, Lord.
Please direct us. Please open our hearts to listen to you. Me, I’d
always like my way, but I don’t want to be selfish. I want to listen to
your will and your ways. I pray for the Holy Spirit to guide us, Lord. I
want to walk with you. I love you.