Yesterday my heart was ripped out of it’s socket. I got a phone call from
DeWayne Bohlender at about 9:00am. I knew he wasn’t involved with the
church set up anymore, so it had to be about Jake. My heart stopped!
It was confirmed – Jake had a rough night and had died about 5 minutes
before DeWayne called me. Shoot! We had prayed in earnest. We had prayed
for healing. We had done an anointing. We thought the best. If you were
to sum it up in Destaney’s words (Jake’s 6 year-old daughter) “If I were
God, I would have healed him!” Me too, Destaney, Me too! In fact, I am
sure there isn’t anyone who knew Jake that wouldn’t have chosen that very
thing for Jake, except God.
But God came out in this story. God was here – right where he was when his
own son died. He was right there, crying with us. This isn’t the way he
designed us to have to live. This isn’t his ultimate plan. But there’s
still a war going on between good and evil and we’re getting caught in the
crossfire. It hurts. It’s painful. It’s wrong. But I know that someday
God is going to put an end to it. Someday God is going to put an end to it
and make things right.
Jakes Testimony is a strong committed one. He told me that he lived the
wild life for awhile when he was going through his divorce. He probably
lived a little on that side before he got married too. But he made things
right with God. He was ready to go. Not too many of us could actually say
the same thing. Are we as sure of our salvation, as Jake was of his? Many
people aren’t. Are you?
I really struggled with the idea that in the New Testament, people were
raised up, healed, resurrected. But in the end, I sought to trust God’s
sovereignty. He knew what was best. He heard all of our earnest prayers.
He knew Jakes heart. And he made the ultimate choice. I trust him with
So, yesterday we lose a good man. We lose a friend. We lose a person who
had some responsibilities in life in raising a daughter by himself. But in
the end, God’s still in charge. He will see us through this. He will see
us through the darkness.
Lord, I pray for DeWayne, Connie, Destaney, Angie and all the other people
in the extended family. I pray you will fill them with your peace. I pray
that goodbye will not be forever, but that all of the family will be
reunited at the coming of Christ. I pray you will fill them with the Holy
Spirit and will fill them with a desire to follow you. Please wake up any
latent ideas about following you and help all of us to meet Jake again.
Thank you for his life, his testimony and his friendship, Lord. Amen.